Meditation Day 3.... well that sucked.

Well on the good side... I did it. I sat there and listened to Oprah and Deepak wax poetic about meditating, then I breathed, then I said the mantra .. which at this moment of writing I forget but it had to do with my third eye and intuition. Today's whole sermon was on intuition and the body and how they ought to be in sync.

I also had the whole clan chatting away in my head during the WHOLE meditation. And I'm crabby, and feel lousy for some reason, and was stressed about stuff I had to do for my dad this morning, and frustrated with the folks taking care of him, blah blah blah ... that's how it went while I was saying "pun" or "sha" or "piff" or "poof" (I really am in a way!).

But... I persevered...   Even though I had to delay the start of the meditation, I did it anyway.

And as I have been learning ... I am going to notice this monumental crabbiness... and let it go. Just notice it and not stew in it.

After the meditation Honey agreed to go for a walk to the summit with me. Bless him because it sure helped a lot and it was wonderful. Red cardinals, robins, sunshine, just spectacular. I am deeply grateful for the warm air and sunshine today. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Namaste

Day 16 ...

Geez, I woke up in such a crabby mood this morning. I'm agitated, restless, Honey is getting on my nerves - and simply by virtue of being Honey. Not good. So I reflect - isn't the practice of gratitude a way out of a mood like that? I don't know.

With a heart full of sincerity, I'm still very grateful for home and hearth, my livelihood, my, our, health. I'm grateful I have a laptop to plunk on while listening to Stewart McLean. I'm grateful I can peruse books of Ireland and plan a trip; yesterday's post still fresh in my mind, and the headlines today no better than yesterday. I am grateful.

And I'm crabby. Is it possible that mood and gratitude have nothing to do with each other? Here I thought gratitude might be a panacea for all that ails me when it ails me.. and turns out maybe not. Not a reason to not be grateful ... just seems a little conflicting is all..

Can I be grateful for being crabby? How and why would that work?

Ok.. I feel like this is going nowhere... so for now - my gratitude as stated above stands... as does my crabbiness.

Let's see what the day brings.